Wow. This is the only word I can think of during this time in our lives. First of all, I wanted to send my prayers out to those who have been affected by COVID-19. Second, thank you to all the first responders who risk their lives to help those affected by the virus; doctors, nurses, medical staff; firemen, EMTs, etc. Lastly, thank you for all those that are still working in order to keep all of us going. The grocery store clerks, gas station attendants, bank tellers, airline workers, transportation, communication, delivery drivers, etc.
Anxiety. Fear. Frustration. Sad. Overwhelmed. Worry. Guilt. Anger. Shock. Denial. I keep hearing these are the emotions that are coming up for you (and me) during this difficult time. It is understandable and it is okay. We've never seen anything like this in our lifetime. This virus is not only affecting the United States, it is affecting the world.
I have to admit, I did not realize how serious this was until February. Although we weren’t quarantined yet, I noticed people were getting sick and the numbers were growing worldwide. Early March, I began hearing rumblings of a quarantine coming, so I began setting up my home office and buying food. My anxiety started to rise because I didn’t know when the shelter-in-place was coming. When it finally hit, I felt a little at ease. Of course, when I began to see the confirmed cases and death toll rising, I became concerned again. I was shocked, anxious, and frustrated. Everything was moving so fast. Like many of you, I didn’t know what tomorrow would bring. I was worried about getting the virus when I went out shopping or to the bank. I was worried about my husband, children, loved ones, clients and friends. Were they going to get it? I couldn’t sleep. I was emotionally exhausted. I felt like a zombie walking around my house and running errands. I had no clue what to do next. Like many of you, I like to plan my life. Most of the time I know what to expect, and if life throws me a curve ball, I could usually figure it out. If I couldn’t, I would ask someone. This time, I had no clue what to do. This time, I had no one to ask. This was unlike any other pandemic that we had seen. After a few days, some people hit the ground running with articles, blogs, Facebook/IG Lives; on how to get through this time. I read a few, but it became way too overwhelming. I decided to sit tight and feel my feelings. I didn’t run away, distract myself or numb out. I knew if I did that, the feelings would reappear much stronger. To be honest, I needed more than one sitting to get through these emotions. It took the first week of isolation to name what I was going through. During that time, I tried different ways to cope with everything that is happening. I have continued to use these tips. I hope they will help you too.
Stay Home, Stay Safe
Please listen to the experts. This is not the time to rebel and be a risk-taker. This is not the time to go rogue. This can be a life or death situation. Protect yourself and others. Follow the recommendations of the CDC, WHO and government officials.
Wash Your Hands. Social Distancing, etc.
Keep yourself clean. Again, check the websites I named above on tips on how to prevent yourself from contracting COVID19.
I know you want to keep informed. I am right there with you. It is easy to go down the wormhole of Coronavirus. However, too much information can cause anxiety, fear, depression, confusion, even guilt. I know things change frequently and you may be worried about missing something important. If you find yourself feeling emotional every time you read the news and statistics, maybe cut back. Unfortunately, the news is consistently negative. The feel good stories are usually at the end. Most likely you are not going to feel good when you are reading or watching the number of COVID19 cases and deaths rise. If you look at the news every hour, limit it to every other hour. Or every few hours. I found myself waking up and scrolling through my phone while in bed. I started my day with negativity. Now I wait until I get out of bed, and finish my routine before scrolling the news.
Get Some Fresh Air
Get some fresh air, while remembering social distancing. Take a walk around the block, sit on your porch, balcony or backyard. It gets stuffy in the house. You need to smell fresh air, hear the birds chirping and smell the flowers. It’s springtime!!
Try Meditation, Prayer, Mindfulness, Breathe
Quiet your mind. Anxiety and worry can cause your brain to be on overload. In this uncertain world, calming and clearing your mind is helpful. It can be for as long as you want. Two minutes, to 20 minutes. If you don’t know how, try an app. There are many good ones out there. Headspace, Calm, Balance or Liberate. Deepak Chopra has a 21-day guided meditation with Oprah. If none of those work, try just listening to rain drops, or ocean waves, or slow jams from your favorite artist. Anything that will help soothe your mind.
Connect with Friends and Family Virtually
This has been great. Thank you Zoom and Facetime for providing platforms for us to talk to our family, friends and coworkers. Besides business meetings, some of you have enjoyed Happy Hours, birthday parties, dates, dinner parties, all virtually. We are in this together. Let’s support each other. You don’t need to be alone right now. If you don’t like video, phone calls work too.
Find a Creative Outlet
Well, you have some time on your hands, so you might as well use it. Try one of the hobbies you’ve wanted to try but never had time. Cooking, baking, drawing, painting, singing, dancing, yoga, gardening, etc. If you don’t know where to start, find a class online. Youtube, Udemy, Lynda are a few places you can find online classes.
If you workout outside, remember social distancing. Running, walking, bike riding, skateboarding are just a few you can do outside. If you are inside, there are plenty of classes online. Many yoga, dance, and martial art instructors have moved their classes online. Youtube has plenty of fitness videos. Relieve stress by working out.
Listen to Music
Music can be so healing. I don’t know about you, but music has gotten me through break-ups, studying in college, arguments with parents during my teen years, grueling workouts, commuting in traffic, etc. I know it can get me through COVID19. I’ve been joining DJ DNIce at #ClueQuaratine on Instagram. I also discovered DJ Cummerband on Youtube and Home Office DJ on itunes. It’s been fun and healing. Find the music that will help you get through this uncertain time.
Find a Mental Health Clinician
If you are still struggling, reach out to a mental health clinician to process your feelings. Myself and others are offering appointments virtually, so you don’t have to leave your home.
Let a professional help you process what you are going through. If you are in California, I have a few slots open to help you. I offer phone and video appointments. You can find clinicians on Therapy For Black Girls, Psychology Today, or your insurance company.
I hope this blog has helped you. Let me know what has worked for you.
Stay safe and healthy.
Happy Valentine’s Day! Happy Galentines Day! Two different days about love. The love of a partner and the love of your girlfriends.
Some women don’t like either day. To them it implies that they need someone in their lives to feel whole or to feel loved. Some don’t have a partner, others don’t have a group of girlfriends like you see on “Sex in the City”, “Living Single” or” Friends.” Some have it all, and don’t want to celebrate any of it.
Who says you have to celebrate loving someone else on Valentine’s Day or Galentine’s Day? What about celebrating loving you? If you have been following me on Instagram this month, you know that I have been talking about ways to practice self-love.
You may ask, why is self-love so important? Well, if you don’t love yourself, you may surround yourself with people that will not show you true love. You may pick people who treat you badly if you treat yourself badly. Self-love is how much you care about yourself no matter who is in your life. Self-love is the way you treat yourself and talk to yourself. When you love yourself, you teach others how to treat you and love you.
Self-love does not need to be overwhelming, time consuming or cost a lot of money. Here are four ways to celebrate the love of you.
I find this to be the number one game changer. We all know that words hurt. I don’t care what the “sticks and stones” saying says, words do hurt. I see it in my private practice and I’ve dealt with it in my personal life. Many of you are devastated by something someone said years ago and it has stuck with you 10, 20, 30 years later. Many times, you start to believe it and start telling yourself the same thing. “I am ugly” or “I am fat” or “They probably think I’m stupid.” You say these things to yourself day in and day out. Over the years, the self-hatred builds until you can’t stand the person who is staring back at you in the mirror. It affects your self-esteem, your career, relationships and how you navigate the world. Of course you try to get out there and date, and wonder why you keep picking the wrong partners or you wonder why you didn’t get the promotion. You can turn this around by changing the negative self-talk to positive self-talk. You may be thinking “telling myself I am skinny is not going to make me believe it.” That is not what I am saying. Right now, it’s about accepting yourself for who you are right now and if you feel like changing the way you look, that will be icing on the cake. Let’s reframe the above negative statements.
“I am ugly.” “I accept the way I look. Maybe I can try a new hairstyle, or new outfit
that makes me feel more comfortable.”
“I am fat.” “I accept my body has changed. I will live a healthy lifestyle
in order to have a healthy body.”
“I’m so stupid.” “I have several accomplishments in my life.“
Would you talk to a child or a friend the way you talk to yourself? Of course not. That would be mean. Stop being mean to yourself.
Create A Healthy Lifestyle
Creating a healthy lifestyle, inside and out is a great way to celebrate loving you. If you aren’t eating healthy or exercising, you aren’t going to feel that great. And if you aren’t feeling great, you aren’t going to love yourself. Also, not feeling good about yourself can drive you to have unhealthy habits. You want to numb ourselves with food, alcohol, drugs, etc. It can be a vicious cycle of self-loathing. A healthy lifestyle is not about joining a gym and becoming a vegetarian. It is about finding food and a joyful movement that your body enjoys. Make it fun too. Don’t use the words diet and exercise plan. You can use “self-love meal” or “happiness dance time.” You want this lifestyle to bring joy, not deprivation, stress and sadness. If you want a brownie or piece of chocolate cake, go for it. However, will your body love 2 or 3 pieces of cake? Probably not. Show yourself love with a healthy lifestyle.
Celebrates Your Accomplishments
When you lack self-love, you notice everything that is wrong with you. Everything you haven’t done. Everything you did wrong. Of course looking the lens of “I do everything wrong” is going to make you feel bad about yourself. What would happen if you thought and spoke about everything you have accomplished? Instead of looking at your weight, how you messed up on a presentation, how you don’t have a partner, look at all the great things you’ve done. You graduated from Yale, work at a Fortune 500 company, started a business, have a great group of girlfriends, you are a loving daughter/aunt/sister, and you are able-bodied. Make a list of all your accomplishments and when you think about all you haven’t done, read the list of accomplishments to remind yourself of all you have done.
How many times has someone told you how great you are and you’ve shut them down. Do any of these sound familiar?
“You look great!” “Yeah, but this dress is old”
“Congrats on the promotion!” “Yeah, but I really didn’t have to do much. “
“Great job on the presentation!” “ I screwed up towards the end.”
When you don’t accept the compliment, you dismiss everything the person has said. A person took the time to tell you what they see in you and you shut them down. Even if you don’t believe it, accept it by saying thank you. The person took the time to say something nice about you, so take the time to ponder that there may be something to it.. Stop believing that people are just walking around complimenting for the fun of it or to be fake. I can guarantee that if someone said something negative you would accept it. Let’s be real, you can accept the negative because that is what you are used to and you may not love yourself. Although you don’t love yourself yet, they want to let you know you are loved.
Loving yourself takes time, however don’t stand in your own way. True love starts with you first. Once you love yourself, you will know what to accept from others.
What have you done to show yourself some love today? Comment below.
Happy New Year! I can’t believe it’s 2020. It seems like just yesterday everyone was worried about Y2K. I can’t believe that was 20 years ago!
My plan was to write a simple blog about 2020 and setting goals for the new year and decade. However, after a recent flight, my blog idea totally changed.
A few days ago, I was on a red-eye flight from San Francisco to Cincinnati. I was enjoying a game of Candy Crush when it started. TURBULENCE. Looking at the aviation map at the time, it looks like it occurred around Kansas (Okay, Wizard of Oz, this Dorothy wants to go home!) Anyway, I’ve been through turbulence before, but it was quick and not too worrisome. This time, it was stronger and lasted about an hour. It was the longest hour of my life. Every once in a while the pilot would announce “Flight attendants take your seats,” and “flight attendants, please check in.” Although he said it in a calm voice, I knew it was serious. I’m sure if I asked the pilot to rate the turbulence, he might categorize it as a 5 or 6. To me, it was a 10+! My daughter, who was sleeping, would wake up every once in a while and look at me with fear in her eyes. I had the same fear, but I tried my hardest not to show it. I held onto her pretty tightly. Little did she know, she was comforting me too. When the turbulence was at its strongest, I started to pray. I pray daily, and have a strong faith, so it wasn’t a surprise I was praying. However, this prayer was different. I’m not sure if you have ever prayed the “Lord, if you get me out of this, I will _______” prayer. This was my first time. I’ve never been one to pray this prayer because I don’t want to make promises I cannot keep. A few years ago, I stopped making New Year’s resolutions for this very reason. During the turbulence, there was a point where I wasn’t sure I would make it. Besides the “ I promise to..” prayer, I also got comfort in the “Well if it is your will, at least I am with my family.” prayer.
Anyway, you may be asking, what did I promise God when I was thinking my life might actually end? Over the past year, with the help of my life coach Kerry Tepedino, I have been working on my emotional, spiritual and financial health. Physical health has been sporadic, but getting better. I started running, eating healthy and drinking less. So on the plane, I promised if I lived that I would definitely speed things up healthwise. I know what to do and how to do it. I just have to do it. In fact, I GET TO take better care of myself because I love myself. Self-Love is the best love, right? I do believe I was put on this earth for a reason. I believe I am not just here to take care of others. I am here to take care of myself. The better I take care of myself, the longer I will live. I’m ready to be a healthy mom, wife, entrepreneur, therapist, sister, daughter and friend. Like they tell us every flight, put on your oxygen mask first before helping others.
So, in a few hours I will get back on a plane and head home. You may ask “Are you worried Mpho?” Nope, not a bit. I have a faith I will be just fine. I realize the importance of living a healthy life. I appreciate an airplane and turbulence for giving me a new perspective on life and my health.
Looking back at 2019, what helped you put your life perspective? Let me know!!
Many Blessings in 2020!!
Happy Father’s Day. Today is a day to celebrate and honor fathers and father figures and all they have done for us. However, in many cases, fathers have left the family, and their children do not feel like celebrating or honoring them.
I work with women everyday who were abandonment by their fathers during childhood. Their fathers abandonment set the stage for the way they see themselves and others. Their father leaving during childhood caused them to feel unlovable, not good enough, and disposable. Since they fill unlovable, they try to find love and self-worth in all the wrong places. Many come to me feeling angry, resentful, and hurt by their father’s actions.
I decided to write this letter to all the dads who left their children behind. This letter is not about dad-bashing. It is the story I have heard from so many daughters over the years. The heartache and pain they endured wishing their father was in their lives. All the things they’ve wanted to say but can’t due to circumstances. This is their voice. Their opportunity for healing.
How are you? It's been awhile. Or for some of us, it's never been. We are women now. You've missed a lot. You missed so many important moments in our lives. Where do we start? Our birth? When you found out mom was pregnant, you couldn’t handle it. You didn't know what to do. You may have been too young. You may not have had a father figure, so you didn't know how to be a father. Who knows. Some of you stayed in the picture a little longer. You stayed a few years after I was born. At first, things were great. You and mom got a long. Maybe you thought having me would help. Maybe you thought sticking it out would help. Things got tough. You began to fight with mom. You lost your job. You may have had a great job, perhaps the stressors of home got to you. We will never know. What we do know is what you missed when you walked out that door. You missed the numerous firsts day of school. You missed Back to School nights and Open houses. You missed Girl Scouts, sports, holidays, summers, vacations, first dates, graduations and college acceptance letters. The fun and exciting stuff.
You also missed the not so exciting stuff. When you left and didn't pay child support, We had to move out of our home and collect financial assistance. We had to shop at Goodwill because mom could not afford clothing. We had to grow up fast. We had to take care of our younger siblings. We had to be emotional support for our mothers. Whatever childhood we had, was gone. We had to listen to mom cry herself to sleep. We saw her date men who were not good to her, or good to us. We needed to start working at 16 because money was a little tight. Sometimes we missed out on parties and school events to work because we needed to make sure the lights stayed on and food was on the table. We started looking for attention outside the home. We wanted love and affection that we did not get from you, so we started looking in other places. Friends, partners, drugs, alcohol, crime, teen pregnancy or food. Many times we found it in men. To be honest, the men did not treat us well at all. However, we didn’t care. It was a man. It was someone that held us (sometimes), was by your side (sometimes), called us (sometimes), told us they loved us (sometimes) married us, or had a child with us. We didn’t care, we just wanted someone to be there and tell us they loved us because you weren’t there. Although their love was sporadic and contingent, at least it was there.
We can honestly say your leaving really affected our self-esteem and self-worth. We don’t feel good about ourselves at all. We don’t feel that we are good enough for any man, partner, friends, or career. We don’t feel lovable. We feel like a disappointment. We feel we don’t belong.
When you left we felt so many negative feelings. We realize those feelings are still there. Anger, resentment, sadness, grief, shame, fear, guilt, doubt, and betrayal. We are trying to work through these feelings through therapy. Holding on to these feelings is no longer serves us. They are causing us to hate ourselves. We love everyone else more than we love ourselves. We are ready to love ourselves. We are ready to look deep inside ourselves to see how our life has been affected by you leaving. We are not here to blame. We are women now. We cannot blame you because we stayed with partners that don’t treat us right. We cannot blame you for our lack of confidence in going for the job we want. Our childhood circumstances were not our fault. We were thrown into a situation that affected the way we looked at life and interacted with the world. We are ready to take responsibility for our choices in adulthood. We made the choices that reflected how we felt about ourselves. Our past does not have to define our future. We are beginning to realize:
WE ARE ENOUGH!
WE ARE LOVEABLE!
WE ARE SUCCESSFUL!
We get to feel joy, peace, happiness, courage, confidence, acceptance, hopeful, love and trust.
At this point, We no longer care why you left. We can no longer hold on to that story. We are ready to write a new story. If you would like to be in it, and if you would like to rewrite your own story, contact us. You had your own story and that is why you left. We get that now. We have learned it was never about us. You left not because there was something wrong with us, but it was something up with you. We see that now.
Happy Father’s Day!
Feel free to share this letter with a father you know who is no longer in touch with this daughter, however, he would like to be in contact with one day. Perhaps this letter will give him hope and motivate him to rewrite his story. Also share this letter with a woman who still has negative feelings towards her dad and she is ready to address her abandonment issues and low self-worth. Feel free to call me at (510) 250 - 3091 or email at firstname.lastname@example.org to set up an appointment.
“I didn’t plan on being a single mom, but you have to deal with the cards you are dealt with the best way you can.” ~ Tichina Arnold (actress)
Well it’s that time again. Mother’s Day. A day to celebrate mothers, grandmothers and mother-figures. We thank you for everything you have done for us. It’s also a day to remember the mothers who are no longer with us. Lastly, a day to remember the mothers we have never met, who may have been unable to take care of us and had to give us up for adoption. We celebrate all of you.
I work with women were abandoned by their father early in childhood and how it affects the way they navigate relationships. However, often we forget fathers also abandon mothers. When this happens, she doesn’t have time to pause, she needs to handle business. No matter how she feels, she keeps moving forward. She puts her hopes and dreams aside, to raise her children. When she wants to cry herself to sleep, she lays awake with her children, and comforts them, while they cry themselves to sleep. She is a hero.
For Mother’s Day, I want to honor single mothers. Here is a letter to single moms from your children.
Dear Single Mom,
Happy Mother’s Day to you!! We want to take this time to celebrate you and all that you have done for us. One must not forget how much you sacrificed when dad left. You didn’t bat an eye when he walked out the door. We are sure when it happened you felt so much emotion. Shock, fear, sadness, anger, shame, vulnerability, worry, betrayal, and loneliness. The day you sat us down to tell us daddy wasn’t coming back and that we were going to be okay, must have been the hardest thing you’ve ever done. You were able to hold it together during that conversation, however, later that night, we could hear you crying in your room. That would be the first of many nights we heard you crying in you room. The next day it was business as usual. You sent us to school and you went to work. Dad called a week later. You gave us the phone and went into the other room. Dad made many promises. He said he would come visit soon and send money regularly. When it was your turn to talk on the phone, we heard you yelling in the other the room. We didn’t say anything when you walked out of the room, teary-eyed and worn out. Dad sent money sporadically. Not enough to survive, so we had to move. You told us we had to scale back on purchases. Christmas and birthdays were going to be different. You had to work more hours, so we became latchkey kids. You taught us how to cook macaroni and cheese, Rice-a-Roni, Hamburger Helper, meatloaf and chicken. You weren’t going to be home because you had to pull double shifts. When we looked in your eyes, we could tell you were tired and overwhelmed. When you yelled us to clean our room, go to bed and get good grades, we knew you weren’t really mad at us, you were just defeated. Dad rarely showed up for his visits. The days we sat outside and he never came, you would come out and sit with us. You told us how much you loved us and dad maybe got busy or forgot. You would make us feel better with an ice cream cone and hug. You never spoke ill of him. I guess you knew, we would grow up and figure out who he was. You found that working 50+ hours a week was too much, so you decided to go back to school. You worked during the day and took classes at night. We did what we needed to do. We went to school, came home and stayed out of trouble. Well, sometimes we got into trouble. We felt so guilty watching you head up to the school for a meeting regarding our behavior. You let us have it as soon as we got home. We get it. We understood. You dated here and there, but you made it clear we were the priority. Teenage years came and it got a little wild. Puberty brought attitude. We wanted to do more than you would allow. Now we realize you wouldn’t let us do things out of fear. You were on your own and didn’t want anything to happen to us. Of course, at the time we didn’t see it that way. We snuck out of the house to try to find the love and connection that was missing from dad. We ran into the arms of friends, gangs, and lovers, who may not have been the best for us, but they kept us company. We may have tried drugs and alcohol, not because we wanted to, but because we wanted to fill the emptiness of not having a father around. We were involved in extracurricular activities, however, there were times you couldn’t make our activities. At times, we were upset and hurt, but now we understand. We managed to graduate high school and go to college. We moved out because we wanted more. Some of us ran the streets, got arrested and sent to jail or prison. Some of us got pregnant or married early. We just wanted to get away from that life. We didn’t want to be reminded of the house that was missing our dad. We ran from you, even though you were our rock. Now, many years later, we realize how much you did for us. We love you so much. When dad left you stuck around. You honored your commitment to love and cherish us. We have to remember, that dad left you too. You had no one to lean on like we had you. You could call a few friends here and there, but at nighttime, we could hear you crying yourself to sleep. Although you felt shame, fear, anger, sadness, loneliness, we saw you as brave, courageous, disciplined, strong and loving and we still do. Thank you, thank you, thank you for loving me and being our rock. Happy Mother’s Day! We love you.
Please share this with a single mother or single mother-figure that had to raise children on her own. Let her know how much you appreciate her and all that she has done in your life and/or the life of someone you know.
If you are a single mother or know a single mother who may still be struggling with negative emotions or self-esteem issues stemming from the abandonment of her children’s father, have her reach out to me at (510) 250 - 3091 or email@example.com.
It’s time for her to get the support she needs.
Loneliness is a feeling no one likes to feel. Loneliness is defined as feeling unhappy or sad when you have no one to connect with. Sometimes people get it confused with being alone, which is just being by yourself. You can feel lonely in a room full of people. If you are alone, you are alone.
Day after day, women tell me how lonely they feel in the Bay Area. According to the 2010 Census data, there are around 7 million people in the Bay. If this is the case, why are people feeling so lonely?
Social Media has been wonderful. You are able to reunite and reconnect with old friends and family. You can find a job or get customers for your business. You can meet people all over the world. You can have 1,000 friends online. However, you can still feel lonely. You may not feel comfortable calling your Facebook friend if your mom is sick in the hospital, your boyfriend broke up with you or you were laid off from work. There may be several reasons for this. You may feel everyone is too busy or you are the only one dealing with this.
These feelings can intensify when you have a history of abandonment. If you were abandoned by your father, many feelings come up for you. Rejection, anger, sadness, fear, or anxiety. Loneliness is also a feeling that comes up. Loneliness after childhood abandonment could have showed up in the following ways:
Do you see how loneliness appears in childhood/adolescence after abandonment? Let’s take a look at how loneliness appears now, in adulthood.
The list goes on and on. You continue to feel lonely and triggered over and over again. Reminding you of childhood, when daddy left.
I understand the sadness and the lifelong reminders that occur when people leave you.
I'm here to let you know, your feelings are normal. Of course you would feel lonely in any of these situations. However, you don't have to stay there. Here are some tips on how to make peace with feeling lonely.
Admit you are lonely. Denial, avoidance, get you nowhere. Loneliness will rear its head every time.
Yep, this can be a little tough for you, because you might cry or get angry. That is okay. You've been running from these feelings for years. Grab the tissues and cry it out. Go to kickboxing to punch and kick it out. I suggest journaling too. Writing down your feelings gets them out of your head and on paper.
Reach Out for Support
I am not recommending the type of support which is really a distraction. This is when you call your girl and head to the club or Sunday brunch for bottomless mimosas. When you get there, you avoid talking about the loneliness you feel, and instead you just want to hang out. Reach out to the friend that you can be vulnerable with. The friend who you can share that you are feeling lonely and you want someone to listen. The friend that will hug you while you are going through a snotty cry. Yeah, that friend. The one who loves you no matter what. No more hiding, reach out.
Seek Professional Help
If that girlfriend or family member doesn’t work out or if you don’t want them to know what is going on, seek out a trusted professional. Mental health clinicians like myself are here to help you recognize and sort through your feelings. We can also help you learn more ways to cope with loneliness. You are not alone in your feelings of loneliness. Your father may have left, but you are still here and can take control of your life and feelings. You are no longer that scared little girl who had no control of what was going on. You are no longer the little girl who did not know how to manage her feelings. If you are ready to grab loneliness by the horns and make peace with feeling lonely, give me a call at 510-250-3091 or email me at firstname.lastname@example.org
Happy April!! Yes! Yes! Yes!! Can you tell I am excited? You wanna know why? It’s my birthday!! I am actually writing this blog on my birthday. I always go big on my birthday because it’s a day that is all about me. I did the usual shopping spree, day at the spa, dinner with family, hotel stay and champagne toast, however my favorite part of my birthday celebration was the bike ride. I was able to enjoy the present. I took in the lovely sites. The trees, flowers, birds chirping, and everyone else around me enjoying their Sunday. I was so present, I noticed a butterfly land on the handlebars of my bike. It felt like God was saying, “I got you! Happy Birthday!”
During the bike ride I got excited about thinking about the birth of my brand new baby. No, not that kind of baby! Two kids is enough! My new baby is my website and brand! Do you like it? I love it! With a little help from Samara Stone and Keisha Kells at www.bebrandconfident.com, I created a website and brand that really speaks to my heart. I love working with women dealing with self-esteem issues, however, over the past year, I’ve wanted to go a little deeper. I wanted to focus on women who were having issues with self-esteem and relationships. I wanted to help them see how these issues are connected to their relationship with their father. In other words, I wanted to work with women with daddy issues.
You may be asking “why would I want to focus on women with daddy issues?” and “what makes you an expert?” Sure, my education and training helps. However, I’ve been there right where you are. Yep, I said it. I had my own daddy issues. I can totally relate.
I remember it like it was yesterday. My father left our family when I was 11 years old. He left a few days before Thanksgiving and we were blindsided. When my dad left, so did the financial, physical and emotional support. By the grace of God, my mom pressed on. She pulled up her boot straps and told us life doesn’t stop, so we need to keep going. My brother and I continued on going to school and my mom went back to school in order to get a better paying job. Times were tough, and I had to grow up pretty quickly. My dad made sporadic visits, however, there were many no-shows. There were many missed holidays, birthdays, 1st days of school and graduations. When I was 18 years old, he disappeared and I didn’t hear from him for 14 years. I started college and began looking for men to fill that void. I remained in relationships that were not good for me due to my low self-esteem.
So I get it and I empathize with the women like you that come into my office and cry on my couch after a relationship ends or dating just isn’t working out. I help women like you become aware that break-ups trigger the same emotions that came up when their daddy left. When you are in a relationship, you are constantly worried and fear that the person may leave you. You may feel sadness, rejection, shame, anger, disappointment, loneliness, mistrust, anxiety and depression, on a daily basis. Feeling not good enough, unworthy, unlovable and disposable is an everyday occurrence.
I get you!! I’ve been there. After awhile I wanted a change. I didn’t like feeling unworthy, unloveable and disposable anymore. I was tired of being fearful and angry. I wanted to meet the right man who respected me. Most of all, I wanted to respect and love myself. Celebrating my birthday was a start. When I turned 21, I decided to throw myself a birthday party. I was tired of feeling lonely and waiting for my dad to come celebrate my birthday with me. I took my birthday into my own hands as a way to start my healing journey. That’s why my birthday is so meaningful to me. Therapy, self-reflection, self-love, journaling, supportive family and friends, a conversation with my father, and every Mary J. Blige CD, also helped me on my journey to healing. This August, I will be married 10 years to a good man who loves and respects me.
As for my dad, he is back in my life. Do we talk everyday and see each all the time? Nawww. I’m okay with it. I’ve forgiven him and love him and accept him for who he is. What matters more is I am loveable, worthy, and good enough, no matter who is in my life. Healing can happen, when you are ready for it.
How are you going to take your healing journey into your own hands? Are you ready to take a look at how your relationship with your father or lack thereof, affects the way you see other relationships? Are you ready to trade in feelings of sadness, shame, loneliness, rejection, unworthiness, desperation, and not feeling good enough, in for feelings of joy, pride, hope, acceptance, good enough, peace and confidence? It’s time girl!!
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Happy New Year 2019!!
I know, I know, it’s been awhile since I’ve written a blog. To be honest, it’s been a tough few months. Between work and the holidays, it got a little crazy in my neck of the woods. What made it worse is I got really sick right after Thanksgiving. It started as a cold, but became worse over the next month. I have to admit, I did not take care of myself whatsoever. I kept plugging along, full speed ahead. I pushed myself even harder because I wanted to make a little more money and take time off at the end of the December. Because I became so sick, I missed a Christmas play with friends, lunch with friends, and family time. I was on antibiotics and still wasn’t getting any better. The entire household got sick, but I was the only one who didn’t recover. That is when I knew I had to slow down. I was tired and was walking around like a zombie. I had never felt this bad. When I wasn’t getting any better, I began to get scared. I thought “maybe there is something else going on.” I saw in the news how the flu and pneumonia were causing death in children and adults. I contemplated going back to the doctor again. I decided to do a little research on flus and pneumonia and saw the best cure was rest and staying hydrated. Oh wait, that is what the doctor said when she gave me my antibiotic in the beginning. Oops. Well, after a few days off from work, social media and life, I got better in time for Christmas.
So why am I telling you this? TAKE CARE OF YOUR HEALTH. If it is the one New Year’s resolution you need to make, do it! I know I am. I never want to feel this bad again..
I encourage my clients to boost their confidence and self-esteem by taking care of themselves. Well guess who wasn’t listening to her own advice? Well not anymore! I decided I need to take care of myself. Bad health is no joke and I want to be around to support, encourage and motivate all of you to live your best life.
Here is a list of what I am doing to take care of myself. Hopefully, it can help you too.
What about you? How are you going to take care of yourself in 2019?
I am a therapist who helps individuals who are motivated to transform their inner voice of self-doubt and self-criticism into a powerful voice of positive self-talk and self-trust. We help individuals recognize their inner worth, build their self-esteem and speak their truth.